"I love you, Sunny," she said.
I was left mystified by that remark. I never imagined something such would happen so suddenly. I was blown away when she uttered those words. I've heard people say that to each other romantically, but I have hardly been a leading part of that story. I've been the reason for that several times, but I've been involved in this conversation as a reception point only once in my entire life. And when I heard this from a girl on the phone, I was left amazed with no idea about how to reciprocate. Meanwhile, she was waiting for a response or atleast a reflex sentence to judge. I stayed numb, stunned and frozen...
Oh! Hey, guys, didn't see ya there! How are you doing? Enjoying new years' parties, I hope. If you're not out there at midnight, getting drunk and losing your minds and pants with someone you don't know that well, and instead are sitting at home right now, watching some celebrations on TV, you're such a loser, get a life! If you're reading this at midnight, man, I don't know what to say. I never knew I had nerd fans too. I thought you would be browsing to find out whether Newton's apple story is really true. It ain't, I tell ya. (pff!) Anyways, guys, it's a night NOT to remember, but to forget! It's that time of the year when you're supposed to erase all the wrongs you did and never look back. So as long as you're not gonna look back, go do some more wrongs for the last time! Please, go get wasted so that you'll have something to let go!
Anyways, enough about you, let's get back to the star! (Ahem, by which I meant ME, obviously, just in case you were dumb enough not to get that.)
Before we start, let me ask you to congratulate me on some of the writing work achievements that I found myself winning, this past month. I didn't tell you this, but I guess it's time to blow my own horn.
You remember the short story I wrote, right? Fuck, I know revealing this will give out my identity, but fuck it, here's who I am. You've been with me for so many years and you deserve to know. Tonight, you will know who is the writer of these blogs. Well, I'm the guy who wrote Casa. Those who have read 'Casanova: The Road to Valentine's Day, 2011,' you know me. Anyways, what I wanted to brag about was, it won another award and I got rewarded some more money for it. :D
http://sandytk-casanova.blogspot.in/
Also, I got a prize for Monks' Delight:
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/11/monks-delight-1.html
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/11/monks-delight-2.html
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/11/monks-delight-3.html
They say that it was one of the best blogs that portrayed multiple point of views at the same time. The third blog (the climax) won it.
And last but not the least, last year's blog: The Vacillating Heart of Hers:
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/10/vascillating-heart-of-hers.html
It won for one of the best written blogs to depict the complexity of emotions of love as a fiction.
That's it, the others didn't win any. :-/ ... :P
Okay, thank you for the applause. Now, moving on...
Before we start, let me ask you to congratulate me on some of the writing work achievements that I found myself winning, this past month. I didn't tell you this, but I guess it's time to blow my own horn.
You remember the short story I wrote, right? Fuck, I know revealing this will give out my identity, but fuck it, here's who I am. You've been with me for so many years and you deserve to know. Tonight, you will know who is the writer of these blogs. Well, I'm the guy who wrote Casa. Those who have read 'Casanova: The Road to Valentine's Day, 2011,' you know me. Anyways, what I wanted to brag about was, it won another award and I got rewarded some more money for it. :D
http://sandytk-casanova.blogspot.in/
Also, I got a prize for Monks' Delight:
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/11/monks-delight-1.html
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/11/monks-delight-2.html
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/11/monks-delight-3.html
They say that it was one of the best blogs that portrayed multiple point of views at the same time. The third blog (the climax) won it.
And last but not the least, last year's blog: The Vacillating Heart of Hers:
http://sanmegh.blogspot.in/2011/10/vascillating-heart-of-hers.html
It won for one of the best written blogs to depict the complexity of emotions of love as a fiction.
That's it, the others didn't win any. :-/ ... :P
Okay, thank you for the applause. Now, moving on...
First of all, I need to thank you all from the bottom of my heart for resisting me for this long. It's been 3 wonderful years that you all held my hand through these blogs. 2012 is over, the year that was most controversially looked forward since many now, and we slid ourselves out of it alive! Congratulations! You know what, to our entire generation, I got a fun idea in mind. Let's just keep it our little secret. Here's what I'll do and I want you to follow this. When I have kids, I'm gonna make them sit and watch the movie '2012' and tell them I made it through that! I'll let them learn all the Mayan crap until they believe it was really scheduled to happen, and then tell them a great adventure story about how me and Mommy made it through! Let's all keep this between ourselves and tell our children that, huh, what say? Of course, once they learn Google, they will know, but until then...
The most fans of this blogs come from US, and then come from my very own India. UK and other Asia follow by a big difference in count but I still am thankful that you felt a stranger like me, that's worth nothing in your lives, was worth the time you gave. You did not just give me time, you helped me through big hurdles of my life. Every time I had some problems that I wrote about, you people, who I don't even know, would comment and mail so many suggestions, and some of them would even make sense! :P Seriously, you guys even shared your experiences to motivate me and help me get up again. You have been with me through so many emotional breakdowns, girl problems, friendships, break-ups, sexual teachings (wink and a twinkle!) You helped me live!
Right now, I'm facing so many emotional problems that connect to the heart, and I do not have anyone to share them with. I am surrounded by so many friends, so many that have even earned the tag of 'best friends,' but in that crowd, I'm still alone. I feel lonely and deserted, and deep down I cry so many times just because I don't have anyone to attach to currently with whom I could just go on talking and talking about what I'm going through. Sorry for getting emotional, but it's an anniversary, I have the right to be! :D And in such desert, as a rose I find this blog. With no one to share in person, here I am sharing it with you so many hundreds of people from around the globe. I know this blog may make me look like vulnerable, but please, no webcam requests. You don't have to undress yourself to make me feel good! :P Thank you for the efforts though.
Anyways, as you all know, it's 31st December, my parents' anniversary. I just got home with their favorite Kulfis (a sort-of ice-cream-like sweet, for people who don't know. Google it, for God's sake! I'm not gonna explain every non-Oxford term, alright?) and we enjoyed it just some time ago. Finished with the desert, I feel full and sleepy. No, lazy, not sleepy. And just as I was lying on my bed with this laptop, my phone rang. And when I picked it up, I hardly knew that it's a girl that's gonna confess her love for me, because, as you know, it never happens! :P Oh, wait, I think I should be using this smiley instead :_(
Anyways, so I picked up and she started by chatting around, wishing me a happy 2013 and stuff. 5 minutes into the conversation and I still had no idea how the call was gonna end...
It really is wonderful how an entire year went without any girl falling for me, and just when I thought 2012 was disappointing, this girl called just a few hours before it could end. I didn't know what to say to her, but I sure thank her for making 2012 count as far as the girl's section is concerned! Check. :-)
Anyways, forget about her. We'll discuss it next year. It's almost midnight! Screw me! First prepare yourself for the moment. Go, quickly find your partner and tell him/her to stay ready to kiss! If you don't have a partner right now, just pick up a good friend of yours and ask him for a kiss. It doesn't have to be sexual, but please don't miss this moment! As the clock hits a fresh year, you just have to have someone special with you or on phone or chat or something. Just tell them how great they are and give them a sweet kiss. Go with the moment and just do it. I tell you, it's beautiful... I miss it... Go!
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As you're reading this, I suppose you've made the plans for the wonderful moment that's gonna change your life little by little. Every year does that, don't you think? Every year, I look back at the things I did, and I feel like I'm different from that guy who did those things, good or bad. You change. You keep changing. And that's what's my new year's resolution is gonna be. To do something different, that the guy sitting here right now, wouldn't dare to do! Something cranky, something crazy, something wild, but not in a bad way, but in an adventurous way. I feel like I'm losing the guy who used to live those adventures and I don't want to. I'm gonna do some things that would be so crazy that I would not be able to even share the experience with my friends or family. I'm not talking about a murder or something, chillax! I'm saying something fun and joyful, that'll keep my diary interesting. I promise myself that every month in 2013, I will have done something that will stay with me for life as a wonderful memory, and stay with you as one of the most amazing experiences you've read. Atleast one such thing every single month because I'm afraid of dissolving into the live of a common man! I guess the readers will stay excited for another year now. :P
Okay, back to the incident! The girl who made me feel that I am a person who's good enough! So, I'm on phone and she confesses her love. Ermm... Hey, I don't think I'm ready to talk about it yet as the dust has not settled right now. I guess I should give the particles of the moment some time to precipitate and then, I can share it. I think I will talk about it once its ripples are rested. That's a story for 2013, I guess.
So...
Happy New Year!!!
I know, I'll wish my parents on their wedding anniversary on behalf of you all too. :-)
They are thanking you (as if... :P )
Chaloz, C U ALLZ IN 2013!
I love you all and please stay in touch, each of you strangers. :D
I hope the year brings you all, great stories to tell...
'Enjoy every moment' sounds so cheesy... So, all I'll say is that, whatever enjoyable moments you get, just try to enjoy them as much as you can, and preserve those as memories... Virgins, I hope you lose it this year (of course, to stay out of legal issues, I wish that wish only to people who have their 18th birthdays or higher coming up next.)
BIG HUG AND KISS!
XOXO
